Thursday, August 17, 2006
sunshine
BenBlackYO!!! i'm super duper happy/sad now. happy for me dat tho i hv problems and weird phases, life is sorta good. but at the same time im sad dat there r ppl suffering out there n im not able to do much about it yet. just had literature student wit my student and i did a piece of poetry which subject matter was poverty and homelessness in india. it was sad reading it. then i taught him geography and we were like looking at figures of infant mortality rate, life expectancy etc...u know ppl in botswana have an ave life expectancy of just 30 yrs? and here i m fussing bout the freakin nitty gritties of my fucking party. its stupid. made me realise life is so much more. we're living in little shells of luxury and protection, maybe i shld do sth crazy like sky diving or sth.
i miss receiving letters from the kids i used to help out at worldvision africa. this girl, swazi, made me a heart shape woven from sticks. it was real nice...anyways im listening to gabrielle's "out of reach" and "sunshine" now. her voice is so soothing and relaxing, makes me feel happy. then i look at my pics on my com of my adorable godson who just called me from sydney asking me to "buy for me thomas. ive been a good boy" (the train set) and then i get reminded of tan yu kwang who does the same and i think of his stupid antics and i laugh...i think of the trip and memories wit the fab 5 and its all good. then i think of wai yan wearing my mums SIA uniform and its funny. hey, she attracted lots of guys wit that hot slit man...then i start enjoying the brownie wit ice cream my sis made for me and i feel contented. this is the calmest ive felt in a while. like theres no worrying, no depression. i think of my godma and some relatives who r flying back to s'pore just to celebrate my bday. i feel touched. then i think of what my friend says, he says he trusts me dats y he tells me alot of stuff. dat makes me happy to know ppl trust u...my clothes for tmr have been ironed by my mum. she didnt nag MUCH today. dat makes me happy too...
cheers people.
peel me [][][][][][][[]] 11:25 PM
