Wednesday, March 22, 2006
don't read... another depressing post

BenBlack

today was one of my worst days in a long while...woke up with a blinking headache then started having gastric or sth like that in the afternoon. I was stoning most of the day until lunch...of late, my mind has become adept at just wandering off. At lunch in camp, I took a tray and forgot a plate and i almost scooped a spoonful of rice onto the bare tray, then i took 2 dosages of panadol within 5 min cos i forgot i had taken 2 pills minutes earlier...Fuck, then at 2pm i had a bloody meeting to attend and I was already feelin like complete and utter fuck.. ok, i thought just endure a couple of hours of shit talk between my superiors. Guess what man? the fucking meeting ended only at 7.15pm...thats 315 minutes of fucking torture. i swear that i felt like dying. my head was spinning and i screwed up the meeting abit cos i forgot to prepare some files in my absent-minded state...i'm gonna get majorly screwed by like 3 different bosses tommorrow...i'm so not looking forward to that, nor am i looking forward to anything in life now...what the fuck is there to be happy about or to look forward to?...except dying.

peel me [][][][][][][[]] 5:52 PM