Tuesday, January 31, 2006
BenBlack's days are numbered...I'm goin back
BenBlackYesterday it was dear Eunice's 21st birthday party...haven't met her and Tania in ages...Gave Eunice a big big hug when I met her cos I missed her so much...she was like my big sister in college, always there for me..and Tania was like my younger sister (eventhough she's older than me) always cheering me up cos I went thru alot of shit during that age...It was also real nice to meet my other ex classmates who I havent seen for bout 2 years...After the party, me, Tania, Eunice and Alexia went down to Holland V for coffee and to play cards and just chit chat...Last nite was proof that you can have a great nite even without alcohol and music...
At the end of the day it is the friends that you are with that matter the most...and last nite it was like a revisitation to my old life which I am about ready to return to...I am ready to leave behind the days of wild partying and go back to the life that I abruptly left behind...
Back to the Present:
Was supposed to go to either Zouk or DXO after Eunice's party...you have a few seconds to guess where I went.....................If you guessed that I didn't go to both then you're right..haha. The thing is I really couldnt decide. You know its like when I go to the food court and I dunno whether to eat chicken rice or wonton mee, I usually end up not eating both and eat like Macs instead...so yeah...maybe last nite was difficult cos Yuey was holed up in camp. Usually he decides and I just go wherever but last nite I had to decide for myself...and I am not exactly the most decisive person around. Zouk was cos PVD was there and I heard so much bout him and stuff and cos Ann called me to go and I needed to represent the Club Yuey group..haha...and DXO was cos Mei called me to go and she's all lonely here in S'pore since Ad and Steph weren't around...Finally I decided to just stay at Eunice's cos I wanted to spend more time with them and I wasn't really in the mood for partying...
In a way, the past few months have been a real eye-opener...I never regret one moment of it...no doubt it has been a blast, but is that my life? is that what I am meant to do in my life here on earth? I feel really blessed to have met a couple of people the past year who have taught me so much and made me more mature (I hope), who have been so tolerant of me and been understanding about the stuff that I am goin thru. I am eternally greatful and I thank God all the time...
I still have alot of growing up to do...maybe its time i learnt to do it myselfLove, Ben
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